ladyoflorien | (no subject)

The evil spirit from The Beast, my other evil computer of DEATH, has transferred itself into my new computer and is haunting me with renewed vigor. I am going. to throw. it out. the window.

I am so very mad right now. SO very mad. Not just at my computer, which has done nothing but screw up all flipping day, but at PEOPLE. Specifically, FAMILY MEMBERS. And the absolutely moronic things they do. I am so very tired of having to deal with it myself. Because I am all by myself. And I really really can't take it anymore.

I am going. to throw. myself. out. the window.

I really, really, really just want to lay down and sleep, I mean really SLEEP right now. but I know I wont. Because I don't sleep. I don't do ANYTHING except listen to the sounds of everything else around me crashing down and breaking into pieces. Tiny iridescent shards that stab my feet and open my fingers and bleed my heart. And I am so very weary with it. It all just needs to stop.

But it wont. And that's probably why I can't sleep, why I can't commit, why I can't speak in front of people, why I can't do ANYTHING I should be doing. And the really sad thing is I just don't care enough to really change that anymore. I really don't.