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ladyoflorien) wrote2002-04-13 06:52 pm
ladyoflorien) wrote2002-04-13 06:52 pm
pout. sob. blah.
I'm absolutely miserable today. I had this dream about this person who used to be my closest friend, and one of the most important people to me, then they went and broke my heart so I basically said I couldn't talk to them anymore. That was four months ago, and they've been haunting me a little more each day until now it's gotten to the point where they're in my head when I dream at night. So basically this whole day has sucked, I've felt really depressed and sad and dang, I just wish I could forget this person ever existed once, then I wouldn't have to miss them so much.
Of course, I listen to 80's music to make me feel better on winamp (just half of a very big, very good playlist) and then of course it had to find Garth Brooks "To Make You Feel My Love" which was one of our songs. Now I'm just broken up and agitated and I want to throw my computer out the window.
AND THERE'S NO ONE TO TALK TO ABOUT IT WITH!!! That gets me most of all. I wish there was someone I could share with, someone who could comfort me, but there's no one. So what do I do? I find people to talk to and pretend to be happy and bouncy and joke around while inside I'm absolutely dying. I can't stand it. Why am I such an emotional person? I want to go back to being ignorant and happy, rather than being the way I am now. Gah.
Cry me a river, build me a bridge and get over it, right? Yeah. I know. I gotta stop being so selfish.
Of course, I listen to 80's music to make me feel better on winamp (just half of a very big, very good playlist) and then of course it had to find Garth Brooks "To Make You Feel My Love" which was one of our songs. Now I'm just broken up and agitated and I want to throw my computer out the window.
AND THERE'S NO ONE TO TALK TO ABOUT IT WITH!!! That gets me most of all. I wish there was someone I could share with, someone who could comfort me, but there's no one. So what do I do? I find people to talk to and pretend to be happy and bouncy and joke around while inside I'm absolutely dying. I can't stand it. Why am I such an emotional person? I want to go back to being ignorant and happy, rather than being the way I am now. Gah.
Cry me a river, build me a bridge and get over it, right? Yeah. I know. I gotta stop being so selfish.
*hugs*