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ladyoflorien) wrote2002-06-10 01:45 am
ladyoflorien) wrote2002-06-10 01:45 am
Phew!
Glorfindel is dead and therefore cannot cast spells
Heh. Have I mentioned yet how much I love that game? Because I do. Really.
A sign says: "There's nothing in here. Really. Go away."
And there really ISN'T too. This just cracks me up. A lot. And then I read it again and laugh some more. It it is quite literally rotfl material. Because you don't put a sign like that up when there really isn't anything in there unless a) you've set a trap or b) you are brilliantly funny. rotfl.
Okay, I didn't practice my piano for hours like I intended to. Why? NO, not because I decided to play Murkon's Refuge instead (.......*cough*.......). Because one of the three afore mentioned friends got on. And IM'd me. And for some reason this agitated me. A lot. And so there was a big discussion. And I say discussion and not fight because I'd like to think it was more civil than a fight. But, to make a really, annoying, tiresomely long story short, things have been worked out to an agreeable extent. I, despite myself, still don't know where I stand with him but that's due to my past and not anything unduly ignorant on his part. As for the real issues and the problems and aggravations we were both most likely feeling, I'd like to say they've been resolved. And hopefully if we can learn from this and take a piece of advice from one another this kind of thing wont happen again. But that's just hoping.
I hate the fact that I'm so un-trusting. Because now I feel the overwhelming need to watch my back and shut off myself from him more so than the average "friend." While these feelings are probably entirely unfounded they are based on two strong points of reason I can't seem to get by. 1) He hurt me, and 2) He did so in a fashion frighteningly similar to another long gone friend I used to have. Add that to the fact that I don't trust anyone easily in the first place, and you have a recipe for danger. The fact of the matter is I'm going to try not to be like this, but for now I'm really uncomfortable with putting any kind of faith in this relationship. So you can shoot me right now.
But the point, ladies and gentlemen, is that I've gotten this sorted out to some extent and everything has been FIXED. And I think I did it without hurting or bruising anyone's ego. Which is a major success on my part. So I feel much much better. Now I don't have to second guess everything that went on and wonder just what the heck he was implying. Because, and I'm not sure, but I think I got him to be straight forward with me and now I know where he was coming from and I can accept that. And that's what matters. Forgive, forget, and move on for pete's sake. That's my philosophy.
So it is now 2:06 in the morning, I have Lifehouse going and I'm hot as all get out. Yes. It is a fabulous day.
Luv, Gabby
You can be right and I'll be real
Honesty wont be pain that you will have to feel
'Cause I don't need your approval to find my worth
Been trapped inside of my own mind
Afraid to open my eyes because of what I'd find
And I don't wanna live like this anymore...
Heh. Have I mentioned yet how much I love that game? Because I do. Really.
A sign says: "There's nothing in here. Really. Go away."
And there really ISN'T too. This just cracks me up. A lot. And then I read it again and laugh some more. It it is quite literally rotfl material. Because you don't put a sign like that up when there really isn't anything in there unless a) you've set a trap or b) you are brilliantly funny. rotfl.
Okay, I didn't practice my piano for hours like I intended to. Why? NO, not because I decided to play Murkon's Refuge instead (.......*cough*.......). Because one of the three afore mentioned friends got on. And IM'd me. And for some reason this agitated me. A lot. And so there was a big discussion. And I say discussion and not fight because I'd like to think it was more civil than a fight. But, to make a really, annoying, tiresomely long story short, things have been worked out to an agreeable extent. I, despite myself, still don't know where I stand with him but that's due to my past and not anything unduly ignorant on his part. As for the real issues and the problems and aggravations we were both most likely feeling, I'd like to say they've been resolved. And hopefully if we can learn from this and take a piece of advice from one another this kind of thing wont happen again. But that's just hoping.
I hate the fact that I'm so un-trusting. Because now I feel the overwhelming need to watch my back and shut off myself from him more so than the average "friend." While these feelings are probably entirely unfounded they are based on two strong points of reason I can't seem to get by. 1) He hurt me, and 2) He did so in a fashion frighteningly similar to another long gone friend I used to have. Add that to the fact that I don't trust anyone easily in the first place, and you have a recipe for danger. The fact of the matter is I'm going to try not to be like this, but for now I'm really uncomfortable with putting any kind of faith in this relationship. So you can shoot me right now.
But the point, ladies and gentlemen, is that I've gotten this sorted out to some extent and everything has been FIXED. And I think I did it without hurting or bruising anyone's ego. Which is a major success on my part. So I feel much much better. Now I don't have to second guess everything that went on and wonder just what the heck he was implying. Because, and I'm not sure, but I think I got him to be straight forward with me and now I know where he was coming from and I can accept that. And that's what matters. Forgive, forget, and move on for pete's sake. That's my philosophy.
So it is now 2:06 in the morning, I have Lifehouse going and I'm hot as all get out. Yes. It is a fabulous day.
Luv, Gabby
You can be right and I'll be real
Honesty wont be pain that you will have to feel
'Cause I don't need your approval to find my worth
Been trapped inside of my own mind
Afraid to open my eyes because of what I'd find
And I don't wanna live like this anymore...