Grrrrrr.

[ladyoflorien]

Watch out, I'm cranky and I've been known to bite.

I wonder how many posts I've made with the subject line, "Grrr"...

I'd like to tell you all about the GOOD things that happened today, but I can't seem to conjure up the happy emotions to do it. All I want is for my Yahoo BL to stop playing night of the living dead, to be able to sleep, for my room to NOT look like a massive explosion occurred exactly 12 hours ago, for people to stop being rude to me and for me to stop revisiting that bad, bad place in my past that my mind hasn't been able to stay AWAY from since dead and excommunicated friends started showing up again.

I just. want. to feel safe, for once in my miserable life, instead of being afraid of my own shadow. And I really, really, really want everything to just dissolve into thin air and leave me drifting in a haze of nothingness, somewhere between reality and vision. Can't I just stay in King Arthur's court a little longer, mommy?

PS. Can I just say that my icon is frightfully ironic tonight?